Insecure Bastard

Ever had that feeling that.. I dunno.. say your friends are just suddenly gonna be struck by lightening, and start hanging out with this new guy/girl instead? Or maybe, the girl/guy you’re going strong with just might lose every feeling they have for you, and go out with someone else? If you haven’t, thank your lucky stars. ‘Cuz it sucks.

And it’s not only the numerous pangs of pain that you get in your chest, or the countless sleepless nights that sucks. The repercussions do too. And the guilt is amazing. Cuz 90% of the times, turns out, you’re just hallucinating and nothing’s wrong. At all. And then all you’re left with is that single thought in you’re head, that eats you up on the inside; You blew it.

Insecurity is one of the most common traits in humans. And it really isn’t always bad. Sometimes, it’s just an expression of love, a means to show that you care so much about that one person, and they hold so much value in your life, that you just can’t bear losing them to someone else. And this is something that only the person who’s insecure can feel.

But (and as I always say, there always is a but!) contrary to something I (also) always say (that being too much is never enough), excess of some things is bad. And Insecurity is most certainly included in that elite list. It can ruin relationships and severe ties, rip apart friends and leave exceedingly deep wounds.

So in the end, I’d like to say, keep the insecurity to a bare minimum. They love you, mostly because you love them. And love’s one hell of a strong emotion. And it’s not something that new chump can take away. Stop obsessing over the “What if it happens/ When if it happens”. Loose your sleep, pull your hair your and shed those priceless drops of sparkling water only when you actually notice the situation slipping right out of your hands. Talk it out. They’re you’re mateys for god’s sake. But don’t fight with them. ‘Cuz you can only realize ones worth once you loose them.

And if it’s really a way of expressing your love or the importance they hold you’re looking for, do it through poetry. Words are a powerful weapon. Not through insecurity.
And if you really have the woes, keep ‘em tucked under a toothy smile. ;)

Love,
Dead Poet.

P.S. – Dead poet WAS an Insecure Bastard. This post is dedicated to him.